观念

2013年快结束了，此刻的我问了自己一句，我......还是原来的那个我吗？唯一我知道的是，我的观念不一样了。我承认我是个不完美的人，不是个完美的家人，朋友，情人，打工仔。对于家人，我希望我能给予他们最好的一切。对于朋友，我能为朋友赴汤蹈火在所不辞。对于情人，我会不自不觉自私的占有，自私的霸占，自私的拥有。对于工作，只要我做好我的本分就足够了。可是现在，要是你问我，我会希望我能给予我家人最好的一切可是不是在物质上，而是我能在他们身边帮他们解决问题。我会希望我朋友需要我的同时我能及时出现。我不再想自私的占有，霸占，拥有一个人因为那一切都只是短暂的。唯一我觉得困扰的是，我不知道我应该继续随心所欲还是理智一点。随性所欲可能只是换来短暂的快乐，可是即将带来的是无限大的伤害。我是不是又做错了？可是，我又违背不了自己的心意。没有回应的付出，其实真的不大好受，失望，心痛。可是我还是安于现状，因为我没信心能做到完美。既然给予不到完美，那我还是自己一个人承受就好。最起码，受伤的也只有自己，这是我唯一能做到最好的。
 

珍惜

这几天都很感触 虽然身边的人还是有说有笑的 可是大家心里都为了这个14岁的孩子感到叹息，可惜，心疼。是真的 珍惜每一刻 珍惜每一个在我们身边的朋友家人 珍惜我们现在所拥有的人事物。事情一旦发生了就无法改变了 因为这一切已成了事实。虽然遗憾 心疼 也只好接受。 我们只会和对我们在乎的关心的人因为意见分歧而吵架。可是我们往往必须为了吵架过背上遗憾和代价。如果你和身边的人吵架了，千万别冷战，吵完架了怎样都需要其中一方先踏出第一步和好。这时候厚脸皮总比失去的好。因为我们往往不懂下一刻会发生什么事。如果下一刻那个你和他吵架的他意外失去了生命，你不是永远都带着遗憾吗？到时才来问自己 责备自己 还会有用吗？ 所以我们真的应该懂得学会珍惜！

珍惜生命。尽量避免做出一些伤害自己威胁到自己生命的动作行为。一些小小的意外足以致命 造成你身边你所在乎的人终身的遗憾和伤痛。这当然不是我们所希望的结果。可是就因为一时的任性就会造成永远改变不了的事实。这正是发生在这位14岁孩子身上，一场大部分人都经历过的脚车意外 最严重的也只有损手烂脚，往往也想不到这场意外竟然让这孩子面临了死亡。唉~

大家三思而后行啊！学会珍惜吧！


我也在学习当中，时时刻刻地提醒自己千万别造成了终身遗憾。

顺其自然

我是我 你是你

我没有可能知道你在想什么

你也没有可能知道我在想什么

很多不明不白的事情 我很想把它搞清楚 可是怕越弄越糟糕

很多明明白白的事情 我很想把它弄模糊 因为太清楚很可怕

顺其自然是我的选择 可是心里的矛盾摆得越久 感觉越来越陌生

虽说如此

顺其自然

还是我唯一的选择！

some updates...

Yeah~ I'm having insomnia and few hours later need to register course for next semester. I scare I would miss the course registration if I go to sleep now. Better wait until everything is settled, then only sleep! :) Another 1 hour 20 minutes to go~ It has been a really long time I never update my blog. Mostly is because I have nothing special to update. There's no happy or sad thing that's remarkable all these time. Still, there's many uncompleted thing that's waiting for me. 

Anyway, this semester is going to end soon. Now I'm having study week and will have my first paper on 11th, a week later for the second paper! Ish, one week gap in between. I have not start any revision yet for the e-commerce paper and yeah I'm not going to start so early. Last minute again, perhaps? I don't really do well for the both subject coursework, anyway it won't be that hard yet feel relax. Maybe because it's the first time I having so less subject in final. Wish PFE lucks! :) After Final, need to busy on packing things because decide to move out from current unit due to the sudden increase in rental. 

I met an old friend on last sunday. It was an embarrassing situation. I don't know what's really on her mind and maybe I'm just nothing for her, yeah I guess so. Sometimes, we just have no choice but force to make a choice. There's not about you are making a correct or wrong decision. As long as you think it's worth, so that's it. And, I just insisted what I think it's correct! Everything is alright, it's just I had lost a friend. 

Anyway, tomorrow have a date which was made one month ago, with a very important friend in my life. Weee, it's her birthday. Hopefully she would enjoy the meal with me haha. I had have a new hairstyle and bought a new shirt, waiting for tomorrow dinner haha! XD Huck Seng, we're visiting you again :)

complicated feelings.

I wonder, why would I have such complicated feelings sometimes. I just hope, I ain't really that bad or annoying to anyone of you. You know, when people grew older, the more complicated feelings and mind they have. One thing I forget to remind myself, I shouldn't have any dependencies on anything or people. Because I can't afford to lose any single thing in my life. Therefore, I don't even have the qualification to be dependent! I should restrict myself to stop all these negative thinkings, not a good sign.

Please lah OSY, NO BIG DEAL as compared to the happenings in Japan. People, please lend your hand to them; they need help! Ganbatte Japan, I'm praying for you! 

Thanks =)

Its name is Kiyo. Therefore, simultaneous equation came out as, 1.Kiyo = Puppy and 2.Kiyo = My sister hence the last equation could be "......". LOL, figure out yourself. I'm just like to fool my sister in this way =p Anyway, ain't it a cool name? Kiyo Kiyo Kiyo~~~~~

I spotted Kiyo when I was in Kuching but didn't get it home, I like it a lot though. Haha, but then unexpected she bought me when came to KL this time. Thanks for the gift! You'r the best sister I ever have =D

Let's introduce Kiyo's family members to you all. Tada Here they are~ 

 Coala & Doggy

Piggy.  

 Ducky.

 Barney.

Say Hello, babe =D

All About Foooooood ♥

 Homemade Tang Yuan.

 Snowflake Taiwanese Dessert.

 Dosa Planta add a little bit sugar.

Wet Butter Sotong Rice@QThai Restaurant, Streetmall,Cyberjaya. 

Tomyam Mee Hun@QThai Restaurant, Streetmall,Cyberjaya. 

 Daorae@Kota Damansara.

 

 Sushi Zanmai@Sunway Pyramid.

 Fillet-O-Fish@MCD, Sri Kembangan.

 UMAI-YA Japanese Restaurant@IOI Boulevard.

Curry Pan Mee@Dengkil.

 Thai Chicken Rice@Moli Dianzi, Malacca.

 Da Ocean Dim Sum@Malacca.

 Cendol@Donald & Lily's Nyonya Food.

 Curry Laksa@Donald & Lily's Nyonya Food.

Mille Crepe@Nadeje Cafe.

 Seafood@Medan Ikan Bakar Alai.

 刺激米粉@Leong Kei, Tanjung Malim.

 月光河@Leong Kei, Tanjung Malim.

Hokkien Mee@Leong Kei, Tanjung Malim. 

Siu Mai@Kuching, Sarawak. 

 Karim Nasi Lemak Ayam@Tanjung Malim.

 Asia Cafe.

烧鸡腿@Opposite of Hawaii Taylor Shop, Tanjung Malim.

ENJOY the foooooodd~~~~~ =)

Craps

I'm feeling sad, but don't know who should I tell so I tell you, blog! I don't have a good starting in this year. I'm not cannot accept the fact of death. I can, just it's pain once a while and I dislike the feelings. Ish! Thing doesn't turn good after all. My grandma is sick and now waiting for the report. Hope it's not a serious problem. Everything will be okay, yeah I believe so don't disappointed me, god. 

Another sad thing. Hope both of you will be okay soon! Life still goes on no matter what happen. Look forward and live to the fullest. Take care, my friends!

Feelings

There's many questions come into my mind recently. Why do human have feelings? She said, feelings make us know each others more. Another she said, feelings make life harder. Well, the answer is "depends". Feelings make us know each others better only when you response naturally when feelings come. If you response unnaturally which mean it's fake then feelings just make life  harder. That's why it makes human complicated.

How you react when your closed one, either is friend or lover cause you feeling really bad? Some people will choose not to confess out, rather keep it to themselves. But, they have their own reason why they do so. Some people will choose to confess everything out. There's no correct or wrong in either both way. I'm not good in describing my own feelings to people so I'm actually not very sure am I handling all these well too. What I believe is, be true to your appreciate one and they will do the same too. Before that, we have to be true to our own self.

Human nowadays are getting complicated as compared to the past. I heart LOLS. They mean a lot to me to be honest. I don't know are they complicated people but one thing is there's no people who is not complicated. But for me, they are just nice and simple enough. At least I can know when they are happy, upset, angry, or excited.... :) Don't look down on all these. It's not an easy thing to know human's emotion especially your closed one. You can just say me innocent. I admit I am, sometimes. 

It's not very hard to be simple actually. I don't know if you know. People used to wear mask frequently when facing their closed one and the one they care the most. Take off your mask, that's it!

Iphone4

I get myself an Iphone4 on 25th December 2010. For me, it's really an awesome phone, no doubt! =) Its solid-three dimensional design attracted me at first sight with a beautiful enclosure a mere 9.3 millimeters thin, making iphone 4 the world's thinnest smartphone as of June year 2010. I'm not very sure is it still the word's thinnest smartphone now haha. Moreover, its screen is ultradurable and more scratch resistant than ever. The most most most surprising is it's recyclable, environment friendly. 

Besides, it is a very high resolution phone therefore provides very excellent color and contrast from almost any viewing angle. It's perfect when playing games, isn't it? Iphone4 is made of stainless steel which is created to be five times stronger than standard steel. In inventing this phone, apple engineers developed A4 chip which is powerful and energy efficient. Therefore, Iphone4 can perform complex jobs such as multitasking, editing video, and placing FaceTime calls. There's no second phone that can perform better than Iphone4, seriously! No offence, It's my own personal opinion. 

Iphone4 camera with 5 megapixel and HD video. Photos captured are satisfying so far even in low-light setting. There's a LED flash built in which perfect the picture when in dark place. Most phones have only one microphone, however Iphone4 has two. The main mic is located on the bottom next to the dock connector which is mainly for phone calls, voice commands and memos. The second mic is built into the top near the headphone jack which is maily for FaceTime calls and for making your phone calls better. This dual-mic noise suppression helps make every conversation a quiet one. 

Last but not least, Iphone4 is really good in multi-touch display and innovative software which other smartphones can't beat. No offence, again! With Iphone4, we can control everything just using our fingers. 

Yeah so I don't feel regret after bought it. I'm proud of Apple products and still I'm apple fans! =)

DAMN IT!

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You.

You. 

The one who comply my wishes for these four years. 

Question marks with me for four years. 

9th January 2011.

You.

The one who I can share my feeling with.

Four years, I kept them to myself.

I feel glad.

ThankYou, Jade Green =)

The first day of year 2011

I have a simple new year celebration, which is BBQ with my brother at home. Then, my parents and my cousin brothers come and join us. It's my first time preparing all the BBQ stuff from beginning until the end of the party. It's fun but kinda tired because my brother keep sitting in front of his computer playing games. He's so bad :( But still I enjoy it very much ;)

Now is at my grandma's house chatting with my relative. Every time at this situation we as the kids in the family are listening to the adults' history haha.

That's all for my 01 JAN 2011. It's simple yet relax and enjoyable ;) Wish all of you all the best!


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Location:Grandma's house, Hulu Bernam

BIG BANG T.O.P

Stage Name : T.O.P

Real Name: Choi Seung Hyun (최승현)

Birthdate: 4th November 1987

Height: 180cm

Weight: 65kg

Blood type: B

Skills: Rapping, beat boxing, composing

Hobbies: Reading and swimming

Likes: Theatrical performances, musicals, and fashion designing

Position: Rapper / Beat Boxing

The "Big Brother" of the band is Choi Seung Hyun (최승현), also known as Tempo or T.O.P. YG's staff calls him Keun Seung Hyun, meaning Big Seung Hyun, to distinguish between the two Big Bang members named Seung Hyun. Before joining Big Bang, he performed in clubs and even won KBS Radio's "Rap Battle" in 2003. Tempo is one of the two rappers in the Big Bang and is also very talented in beat-boxing. Recently, TOP has successfully finished filming his role as the school's top fighter in a Korean drama called, I Am Sam. His character's name in the drama was Chae Mu Shin and his talent as an actor has impressed the fans and the viewers as well.  As of 2009, T.O.P. is acting in Korean drama IRIS as a cold-hearted assassin Vic. 

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I'm not a Korean Fans but I'm a fans of him =) Few days ago, my friend showed me his MV and I decided to become his fans. So~ I start stalking about his thing =p I seldom watch Korean drama, but I'm looking for his drama.

I like his eyebrow~ 

 Yeah. I love this picture as well. 

Secret.

Secret, is hided in a deep place of our heart. To be exact, we use recent years memories to cover up the past where we don't hope to share with anyone else, which is called "secret". Everyone keeps their own secret. 

Yeah, me too! I hide up some of my thoughts in order to prevent you to have any hard feeling. But, it burden me sometime. This is because I always stop myself when I wish to tell out everything. Do you know? Well, this is so called "secret".

Hahahahahahahahaha I'm just talking nonsense because I can't fall sleep in this late midnight. Just ignore it.

I'm lucky ♥

I had a happy steamboat night with my friends yesterday. We cook, We chit-chat, We eat. A simple gathering, simple dishes, simple place, but make a wonderful night.

Tonight, went to supper with my friends and again, usually supper time is our gossip time. Haha actually not really, we just share our own experience and thought. At least, I'm not alone when I want to go for supper~ I have, one two three four five six seven eight nine  ten~uncountable best friends~ I'm lucky ♥

Wish everyone of you 冬至快乐! 

Today! 16/12/2010

I just came back from supper with my friends. Unexpectedly, we talked about 4 hours at the mamak stall. We actually meet up everyday because we study the same course. But then when come to chat about "the path that we have traveled", we are just like a long lost friend that can chat non-stop. If tomorrow has no class or there's no exam on Friday, I think we can continue chatting which can be said as "pillow talk" at the mamak stall =p I'm really glad that I know them because I know who to talk with when I facing problems. There's a period that I feel myself is a failure person. I have been asking myself, "who would I think of when I need emergency help?" I think of no one where my brain is totally brain to be honest. But now, I have plenty of them, thanks!

Owh ya! Finally I get back the HP netbook. Thanks Rep for teman-ing me go and collect it. Seriously, she is the best GPS ever =) Anyhow, I'll train myself to be a GPS before the day we graduate =p Because she can't be my GPS forever ='( I will try my best to make it!

I should stop here. I heard my works are calling me! Now, I envy those who'r sleeping. Sweet dream guys.

Appreciate Your Life For Your Loved One!

I don't understand why. Why nowadays, human ain't appreciate their lives? We as our parent's child, should think for our parents before making any decision. Parents bring us to this new world, and we are given the ability and power to build our own personalities, attitudes to live on this world. Life is precious. Some people who are sick, trying their best to survive although only one more day longer in this world. 1 day is short, but this is a lot for them as they can spend 24 hours more with their loved one. So, how could those people with good health going to make an end for their lives by themselves? We might be depressed due to some obstacles. However, human is powerful. Whatever obstacles or challenges are faced, we can overcome it if we think positively. Human's ability has no limit, said to be infinity. I always trust this! 

Do appreciate your life for your loved one! 

A Short Trip to Genting for.......

Ah Mui~~~~~Happy Birthday! Few months didn't see her because I was busy during her holiday and she was busy during my holiday. So today my family and I purposely go Genting to visit her and celebrate her birthday which was on 13th December. We did enjoy although it was just a simple gathering. Yeah, at least I knew I did't make a wrong decision as she's getting mature =) Enjoy your big day and have fun!

Tomorrow have to back Cyber, sad T.T I enjoy this midterm break to the max! and I can sense the bitter-ness tomorrow onwards ='( Counting my works, 1...2...3...! 

Yet I decide to Sleep now and Do tomorrow =p

Another sad thing, Ryan仔 going back to Sabah tomorrow. Hope he will come back on this CNY. 

Night!

Ryan仔

I just came back from high-tea session with my relatives. Yeah! Finally I get to see him-Ryan仔~ He is so cute with his big eyes. Look at the picture above! He is cute and handsome. Of course he is handsome because he has a handsome daddy and a pretty mummy =) 

That's all for tonight.